Sober October - Day 10 - Double Digits & Dance
We made it 10 days! Congratulations. Double digits here we come. How do you feel? How is your commitment to your tiny habit going? Are you being kind to yourself?
Most importantly—are you having fun?
My entire personality was so tied up with drinking and smoking weed I had no idea how to do anything without either one of those substances. When I quit drinking, I was convinced I’d never write again, dance again, be able to endure small talk again or laugh again. And although I’ve never recovered my ability to endure small talk, I do all the other things with even more regularity and it comes from such a pure place in my heart. When I quit smoking weed—I resigned myself to the fact that I just wasn’t that funny. Although I might not be as funny as I thought when I was high, I have commit myself to doing the fucking work and learning how to actually craft a joke. Shocking, I know.
Turns out, booze and weed were hindering my clarity and ability. It’s not a coincidence that after decades of trying to get paid for my writing about a year and a half into getting sober I sold my first freelance piece to a major publication.
Someone said to me in early sobriety, “If you’re not enjoying your sobriety, it’s your own damn fault.” And I love that. It’s true. I was feeling sorry for myself, taking myself too seriously and mourning the loud party girl that I used to be.
Party Girl Bridget is gone—but in her place is Silly Bridget. The belly laughs are genuine.
It’s Saturday. Put on some music. Blast it and dance. Be silly. Jump around. Feel stupid and awkward. Laugh. Let your inhibitions go and enjoy being in your body, today, breathing.
We are just passing through. A tiny grain of sand on the beach of humanity; here one minute and washed away. Relish in this moment. And dance.